Scared, Worried, and Dissapointed

*Disclaimer: I am not fond of Hillary, and I definitely do not support Trump. I am hurt and confused. This post is mostly me getting my ideas out, so if there are any spelling or grammatical mistakes, oh well.  

I'm sure most of you by now are aware of what happened yesterday. Donald Trump was elected to be the next President of the United States. When news broke, so did my heart. All the hard work that the people have put into making sure that man didn't get into office was all for nothing. Somehow, despite her being in the leading, at last minute everything changed. My initial reaction was shock and worry. I messaged my parents and asked them what we were going to do. They responded by saying that they were still going to wait it out and see how much damage is done, and then go from there. Now, let me preface this by saying that yes, I am upset with Trump supporters, but I have to respect them, and I do. I am entitled to my own opinion and feelings, and I have the right to share them. Just as they have the right to vote for a man who will take us back 150 years and scares everyone who is not either white, rich, straight, etc. 

The most terrifying part for me when I learned that he was elected was climate change, and the wellbeing of my friends and family. I had friends calling me, in tears being worried about their safety. They were so scared that they planned buddy systems because they're environments are so unsafe after him being elected, they feel as if they cannot leave their campuses without being harassed. Imagine that, as a person. Even if you are not POC, LGBTQA, etc, imagine the fear that surges through your body.

As a woman, I am terrified. My rights as woman most likely will be stripped away from me. My reproductive rights will be taken away from me, something that is my basic right. If I ever were to be pregnant, and it was the wrong time, I would not have a legal option to have an abortion, because one man who has no basic respect for women was able to clap his hands and have this basic human right disappear. Also, having a rapist as a president doesn't make me feel the safest either. 

As a person of color, I am terrified. Trump is racist and endorsed by the KKK, yes, but he is not racist towards Asians. People just believe that now he made it as President they are able to whatever they want without discipline. It has not even been two days, and Klan members are demonstrating and walking around towns. My black, filipino, non-white passing friends are terrified and do not know what to do. Their parents are selling houses, moving to other cities, states even to get away from the racism and harassment they receive.

Now, I am lucky to be from Seattle, which had I believe a 98% vote for Hillary and 2% for Trump, so I know I will feel safe only there. But if I were to travel to Georgia again, I am not sure. Especially with a mother who immigrated to America years ago. This is something that no one should ever experience, especially being citizens of this country.

At the end of the day, I am disappointed in America, once again. I am embarrassed to call myself that, and in all honesty I wish to not call myself American anymore. And I'm sure some people who read this will be tell me that my opinions are stupid, that I should leave the country, and that America will be better off without my "radical" opinions that soil the American reputation. Well to that, I ask you to look in the mirror and ask yourself how you are going to explain to your future children, friends, family, about why voted for a man that doesn't believe in basic human rights, and climate change. When wars break out over clean water, energy, left over trees, I want you to tell them and explain to them why you chose to overlook future generations quality of life.